Tuesday, 26 February 2013
Monday, 25 February 2013
Underneath The Carpet
It's been some time since I truly connected my heart and brain. I've begun to realise that there is a whole side of me that I wasn't aware existed. An emotional being.
I am the "put it away and forget about it" gal! I feel the need to remain strong for my family in difficult situations so have swallowed my emotions in an attempt to be strong, re-direct attention and and not to be a burden. I am slowly beginning to understand that by brushing my feelings under the carpet all I've done is created a pile that is beginning to fester!
I'm sure I'm not the only person that has put their loved ones feelings before their own, but as the burn grows I feel the need to release.
I am not the kinda girl that cries to a counsellor, in fact I don't rely cry at all. My family may have maybe seen me cry twice in my 36 years. Slight clue that I have a problem?!
I found myself with an ache in my stomach and tears streaming, listening to a tune I'd never heard before. The rap was funny and dark and obviously connected with me somewhere. I wrote down the bars whilst tears turned to sobs. That day I wrote my first poem and although it drew me to a memory, it released a small part of the ache. So here I am!
I'm not a hippy an emo or an attention seeker. I don't care if this is never seen. I'm a 36 yr old woman starting a new life which weirdly includes emotions.
I'm going to talk about my life and post poetry, bars and whatever comes to mind.
Gem x
I am the "put it away and forget about it" gal! I feel the need to remain strong for my family in difficult situations so have swallowed my emotions in an attempt to be strong, re-direct attention and and not to be a burden. I am slowly beginning to understand that by brushing my feelings under the carpet all I've done is created a pile that is beginning to fester!
I'm sure I'm not the only person that has put their loved ones feelings before their own, but as the burn grows I feel the need to release.
I am not the kinda girl that cries to a counsellor, in fact I don't rely cry at all. My family may have maybe seen me cry twice in my 36 years. Slight clue that I have a problem?!
I found myself with an ache in my stomach and tears streaming, listening to a tune I'd never heard before. The rap was funny and dark and obviously connected with me somewhere. I wrote down the bars whilst tears turned to sobs. That day I wrote my first poem and although it drew me to a memory, it released a small part of the ache. So here I am!
I'm not a hippy an emo or an attention seeker. I don't care if this is never seen. I'm a 36 yr old woman starting a new life which weirdly includes emotions.
I'm going to talk about my life and post poetry, bars and whatever comes to mind.
Gem x
Harness Your Blame and Walk Through
So here goes, my first poem..................
Brother
I've touched the bottom, i've laid there still
Eyes wide open, but still dillusional
Picked up by arms that refuse to let me kill
brother my behaviour was inexcusable
Raised me up against the light
Showed me scars I'd won in life
he taught me im supposed to fight
and how I could win the battle out-rite
Gem x
Brother
I've touched the bottom, i've laid there still
Eyes wide open, but still dillusional
Picked up by arms that refuse to let me kill
brother my behaviour was inexcusable
Raised me up against the light
Showed me scars I'd won in life
he taught me im supposed to fight
and how I could win the battle out-rite
Gem x
You Lit A Fire In My Heart
Like many I'm obsessed with words, be it lyrics, poems, rap bars or novels. Basically anything that makes me emote.
As humans we go through the ups and downs of life and I find comfort in words, so I thought I'd find a place where I can share them. I have no idea if they are good or terrible and really don't care. For me writing is a selfish art, we use it to clear our heads and make sense of our hearts.
It's been several years since I've read any poetry and I'm looking forward to stepping back into the world.
If you like my poems let me know, if you dont keep it to yourself! ;)
Gem x
As humans we go through the ups and downs of life and I find comfort in words, so I thought I'd find a place where I can share them. I have no idea if they are good or terrible and really don't care. For me writing is a selfish art, we use it to clear our heads and make sense of our hearts.
It's been several years since I've read any poetry and I'm looking forward to stepping back into the world.
If you like my poems let me know, if you dont keep it to yourself! ;)
Gem x
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